In a very recent conversation with a dear friend, I was told I was a great mom. This of course being said after careful observation on the friend's part. And I kind of shrugged as to say "I guess so."
Reflectively I ask myself why it is so difficult at times to admit that what I am doing with my life is a great accomplishment. I love my children. I love my job. But as previous posts prove, I also wonder quite often if this is what I was meant for.
In my devotional this morning, I was directed to believe that whatever it is that we do, is God's work. That driving a truck, delivering the mail or working at a bank is God's work. My job that I left to be a full time mom was mostly about serving others. I do despartely miss that profession. I seem to be born with a need to see others happy. To resolve a problem and send people on thier way, feeling a bit better about the world. And why now, do I not always feel that my life has real purpose, I do not know. It is a daily struggle. This human affliction of needing to have a feeling of selfworth can be quite destructive.
So I have decided to let my work be not only for my children and family, but foremost for God. I will not be perfect. I have never been. I know there are others that will be better at this than I am. But if I mop the floor, change a dirty diaper, make grilled cheese sandwiches, read the same book for the millionth time and sing lullabies for the glory of our Lord, then it will change the way I feel about my profession. Will I always be so positive? Absolutely not. Will this make tasks that seem so mundane easier? Probably not at first.
In another conversation with the same friend, we spoke of worship and what it means to us. How everyone has a different opinion of how it should take place. The specifics and little details that really in the end are not that important. And the result of this debate on both sides is that we worship God in everything we do. That our lives should be in constant worship. I of course already knew this, as did my friend. Yet sometimes, most times, I need to be reminded.
I am grateful and humbled by everything the Lord has done for me. I have these girls to show me how wonderful He is. Every moment is a blessing. And while I do not get much reflective time, I do make time for a morning devotional. And this one today, put me in my place. Thankfully, we have a God that loves us enough to know that sometimes what we truly need is a swift kick in the pants to get us back on track.
I challenge you to do each task in your life for God's glory. I can safely say that you will have a change in attitude. And everyone needs a change every now and then.
