Ever feel this way? If you are a friend of mine then you know my family has been experiencing some turmoil in the past month. While we knew it was coming, it was still difficult news when my husband was let go from a job that he had worked very hard at for the past 11 years. A promise was not kept and a relationship was broken.
That being said, things have been very difficult around here. Financially, emotionally and unfortunately sometimes spiritually.
I overdrew my account to put gas in my car so that we could go to Church. How pathetic is that? You want to say "I'm working to serve you faithfully, God, but yet you aren't blessing us." When in fact that simply is not true. Yes, I have an overdrawn account and am behind on bills and feel like my husband may never find a job that will help us get ahead, much less make ends meet. But the truth of the matter is, that I am blessed beyond mesure. Overdrawn account? At least I had money to put in the account at the beginning of the week. At least I have a vehicle to drive, and a very nice one at that. But the most important thing to be thankful for is that I have the freedom to worship God in a wonderful atmosphere with an amazing congregation of the people of God.
I don't know why this is happening to us. Yes, I have moments of panic and am very scared at times. I want the Lord to give us a job that he knows is best for our family. But waiting on the Lord is very difficult. And then I look around at the messy little house and realize how much he continues to bless me. My goodness, I have so much stuff that I have run out of room to put it all! And not just the stuff, but the healthy beautiful girls that He has given me. And although we are struggling with unemployment, we have had some much needed family time. The truth is I am not at the mercy of the individual that decided to let my husband go. I am not even at the mercy of Satan who tempts me every day to curse God and ask him why he isn't blessing us more. I am at the mercy of the Almighty, who is doing and will continue to do wonderful things in my life.
When I am honest with myself, I see how unworthy I am and how ungrateful I can be. God has chosen to humble me, to break me of some bad habits and to test my faith. Those are some very difficult pills to swallow. But the amazing thing about that statement is, that He has chosen me. I can only hope and pray that I will not fail Him, that I will be a light, a beacon of His discipline, His love, His blessings and most importantly, His grace.
Challenge yourself to praise him in the good and trouble. You will not always be successful. But our Creator knows us better than we know ourselves, be prepared for amazing things when you put your faith in him.
Proverbs 3
Proverbs 3
Wisdom Bestows Well-Being
1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,
2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you peace and prosperity.
but keep my commands in your heart,
2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you peace and prosperity.
3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.
4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.
4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.[a]
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.[a]
